Two weekends ago me and my main squeeze spent the weekend in KC to attend our first ever NFL game live! I gotta say I was completely hooked. The whole day was absolutely perfect minus the fact we were at Arrowhead Stadium (Chiefs) and not Mile High (Broncos)….sigh….maybe someday.
Besides having an absolute blast and living on a football high for a few days afterwards…. I came to terms with something. I …or should I say we…need a change.
Lately I feel like I am an 18 year old waiting for graduation so I can split and go see the world. There is that nervous energy that has been coursing through my veins making me desperate to get out and breathe some new and fresh air. Sounds weird right? I mean I have a job, a house, a husband and two kids and I can’t just pick them all up and head off to the mountains. Although, I really, really, really would like to.
I’ve always craved change and welcomed it. I get bored easily which is one of my more negative traits. I need change to keep things fresh, keep me upbeat and keep my perspective in check. Me and the hubs moved 4 times in the first 3 years of our marriage. At the time it was hectic with a newborn and another one on the way but we loved it. It was good to declutter our house and our minds, start over, reset our gears and begin again. Yes, it was in the same cities and they were small moves but it was still change. We bought our current house hoping for another change 2 years later but here we are going on 4 1/2 years and are looking at being stuck here for who knows how long.
So what’s a girl to do?
Halfway through this long work week I realized I have become a zombie. The only thing I’m really sure of is that I’m breathing. However, some days I feel like with every inhale and exhale I’m just cheating myself out of life. Our world has become monotonous and so utterly routine. I could complete our days in my sleep without ever opening an eye. 5 months into my career and it has also become the same thing every day with small variations. The scenery outside my car window every morning is never changing and the days continue to be the same long hours that tick by ever so slowly. This is how I know I need a change. When I stop noticing things around me are different and when I get stuck in my rut I know it’s my brain telling me to wake up and engage again.
Therefore, after talking about it with the hubs I think we have decided to take a road trip this summer (if I can get off work). A road trip to various places in the U.S. that we think we might want to live. (Colorado is top of the list since the greatest team on earth is there…duh!) If we fall in love with something and actually feel like home there we might just pack up our bags and head out. Missouri is where I grew up, where my family is and where 20+ years of memories are……but honestly it just doesn’t feel like home anymore. This is not where I pictured raising my boys and as a mom I want to give them the best life ever. Maybe our best life is visiting the ocean on sundays, or taking strolls through central park or hiking in the mountains and having front row seats to the Broncos games every Sunday. Who knows what awaits us but right now, in this moment I’m willing to put it all on the line and find out!!
Hoping you all find the inspiration to change something in your life for the better….