In my reading of blogs, social media posts and news in general the past few days there has been a cohesive theme…..2016 was ROUGH and most everyone was glad to see it go. I think this is the first year I can ever remember where a whole entire country seems to have had a year full of more lows than highs. I’m a big believer in energy and connections and so my brain wonders if it isn’t just fear, sadness and frustrations feeding off each other since we are all biologically connected in some way. I don’t know…just something interesting I think about in my middle of the night feedings. 😉
Don’t get me wrong, not everyone had a bad year and there were certainly highlights but needless to say 2017 was brought in with something we all needed…A FRESH START.
So today I wanted to quickly look back on our year and bring some closure to some of our trials and look ahead to what I am officially calling “OUR YEAR!”
The highlight of 2016 was definitely the birth of Boden. My whole entire birth experience was amazing…albeit frantic…and adding him to our family has been the biggest blessing. Closing out the chapter of having babies has been done in the most perfect of ways and we just couldn’t be more at peace.
Another highlight of my year was taking some time for me to step out of some toxic situations and re-evaluate things. I have had a year to completely dissect, take apart, study and figure out myself, my relationships, my life and just a bunch of other things that needed to be dealt with when it comes to certain people in my life. It has truly been the most amazing year for personal growth for me and I am so glad I took the time.
I also got to visit my best friend in San Diego and while it didn’t go exactly as planned with a 3 month old it was amazing to spend time with sister from another mister and was definitely much needed.
This year did contain challenges. From some work situations to trying to find balance, to our unexpected pregnancy and miscarriage over the summer, to family betrayal and ending it all with our house (that’s currently vacant and on the market) springing a water leak and causing damage. There’s been a lot in between but those are the highlights. It’s been rough and brutal in many ways, however, I can honestly say I am THANKFUL for each and every trial.
Me and Jared have an interesting mindset about trials. We have this process. Go through the motions first…shock, anger, sadness, rage, pain….whatever it is – or perhaps all of the above. We ALLOW ourselves a short period of time to feel those things. A short period of time could be days, 1 week or 2 weeks. The only time we give ourselves a full month is if it is REALLY BAD. After that period of time, when we have been able to feel all the feelings and filter them out it’s then time to go back and dig. Most people in life never want to dig through their pain and hurt again. Most don’t want to ever even think about it again. However, we know that life brings us trials because there is a lesson that we needed to learn. As humans we usually ignore the lessons the first 5 times and so have to be put through hell just to get the picture.
So we dig…and dig…and dig some more until we can find EXACTLY what all that pain and hurt was supposed to teach us. We take the lesson, we evaluate and we LEARN. It’s only then that we can move on in complete and utter peace and joy knowing we have the strength to move forward and the clarity to know better next time.
Needless, to say we learned a lot of lessons this year and in doing so learned so much about ourselves. Our strength and resolve has been tested a lot the past 4 years. We have been through a lot of situations that should have torn us down. Should have kept us on the floor. However, we are survivors and our goals in life are to be better every.single.day.
This isn’t about other people. We aren’t on some mission to be better than others. We want to be better than ourselves and the people we were yesterday.
You see, life is all about growing. If you aren’t growing and moving forward you’re not going anywhere. Nobody should aim to sit in the stands and watch everyone else passing you by. Where is the joy in that life? It doesn’t exist. So we choose to always be moving forward with the knowledge of the past, the acknowledgements of mistakes, but without regrets. We are who we are because we lead with our guts and that will never change…so regrets are few and far between here.
2017 is for sure “Our Year.” I don’t say that as some kind of mantra I chant every morning, while I burn incense and sit on my fluffy pillow. (If you do do that, however, I totally think that’s cool and may even join you sometime) I give this year a title because I can feel the shift in the air.
I can feel things starting to align in the way they are supposed to.
I can see that all the hard work, sacrifice and lessons have led us to this year.
This is the year of change and expansion and growth and we couldn’t be more excited.
2017 you will be the best one yet and I look forward to the people we will be at the end of it because my goal every year is to be a better version of myself than I was the year before. You can’t change the world by never improving so I’m ready!
Let’s do this!